Archive for January, 2006

Fly

Posted in Uncategorized on January 25, 2006 by organicsauce

So many things in my head
Can’t get them out
Can’t get them down
I just want to fly
So high
Far away from here
High up in the sky
Where wings hold the thermals
And gravity forces me to focus
On the task
To survive, no distractions
I just don’t know how to land
I have an excuse for everything

Sara Smiles

Posted in Uncategorized on January 25, 2006 by organicsauce

Sara smiles
Thoughts of him still fresh in her mind
She clings to the fragmented remains of her fading dream
Feeling feelings she only feels when he his around
She gets dressed
Happy for a new day, sun shining giving life
Not a care in the world
Like when she is in his arms
She doesn’t admit it, not to anyone at all
And she certainly can’t tell her boyfriend
That there is another
Tortured heart, pulled in to so many directions
Evening light, fading to the west
She’s in her boyfriends arms, but her mind is elsewhere
Things have changed again in her life
She knows what she wants, and this is just not it
Strangers become friends
Friends soon become lovers
Lovers find new places to explore
Secret sanctuary in each other’s hearts
She drifts off to sleep, still in her boyfriends arms
Dreams soon form in her exhausted mind
And there he is, the bright light she is drawn to
And she is happy again, her lover, her friend
The stranger

Time is Time

Posted in Uncategorized on January 24, 2006 by organicsauce

Tide rising
Running out of time
Desperate
Not really sure why
Just a feeling, I guess
Afraid of my fears
Fearing being afraid
Getting used to it
I’m a man
Aren’t I?
Still
I want to run
The urgency is deep
Can’t explain
No, not now
No time
Time is coming
To an end

The drum beat
The drum beats faster
Setting the pace
Oh shit
This is gonna be good

I Don’t Know

Posted in Uncategorized on January 23, 2006 by organicsauce

I don’t know what you want
I don’t know what you need
I don’t know the answer
But what about me?
How quickly we forget

Clarity

Posted in Uncategorized on January 22, 2006 by organicsauce

In this moment of clarity
It all makes sense
Between conflicting voices
Taunting me from each shoulder
I smile and I know the truth
It was there all along
I just didn’t want to believe it
I wasn’t strong enough

Boy

Posted in Uncategorized on January 21, 2006 by organicsauce

A simple twist of fate
Unpredicted in spite of the preparation
Sad story, indeed
As the child cries for his father
And daddy’s image begins to fade
Replaced by a stone bearing his name
In a sea of dust to dust
Immaculate lawns littered with pain

She keeps the photos
Protected from her tears, held in plastic
Her child does not understand
At 5, he is now the man
With no father to see him through
To prepare him for his eventual struggles
Forced to be mature and be strong
In this world, he must figure it out on his own

Memories will only last so long
Daddy is not coming home
Not tonight, or ever
Good night, sweet child
The pendulum swings the other direction

Open to Happy and Sad

Posted in Uncategorized on January 20, 2006 by organicsauce

To you, I send this love
Forgive me as I struggle to find the words
I can barely admit it
But it is love, that is for certain

You are the first thing when I awake
You are the vision as I sleep
You are my warmth, my security
You are more to me than me

I don’t know why I could not see this before
Maybe I did, forced to deny
To protect myself from loves eventual hurt
But I can’t hide it anymore

Don’t fool yourself, you know it
You know I love you and you always have known
I could tell it in your eyes, on your lips, and with your touch
You know how much I love you and that is why you are gone

You are still beautiful in my eyes
Even as you lay in his arms
My love for you continues even now
Because I am a fool

Come to me, oh sweet darkness of night
Take me from this grief and pain
Hold me and tell me everything will be alright
Please make sure I never fall in love again