My head is a mess of swirling stress
Constant distractions
Real and unreal
I have lost the ability to know which is which
These walls fall into place so easy now
Shadows haunt but have become familiar
The whispers
From deep dark chambers
Hello my friends
Welcome to this place
Pull up a space
And listen to the torture in my mind
Midnight glow
Of moonlight bright
Casts shadows
On the bodies
Lovers. Strangers.
His stare
She feels it in her soul
Her eyes
Moist with anticipation and yearning
She surrenders
He hovers over her
His sword ready
Their flesh shining with the sweat of passion
She nods
He plunges. Penetrates.
She cries out
And grips him tight
Legs wrapped around
She pulls him deeper
And shakes with little death
You are powerless
You have no control
You call it your life
But someone else controls it for you
And fail to see the strings
As you move around in thoughtlessness
I’m so tired
Sitting on the edge of the bed
Thinking things swirling in my head
My eyes are heavy but won’t close right
This is gonna be another long night
It’s too hot
Ceiling fan does its best
It’s up to me to do the rest
The light of day so far away
Frustration grows on this virgin day
I can hear the silence
Loud and clear
Sounds familiar
Sounds of sadness
I sit and contemplate
And think about these thoughts
Again, I fail to understand
I am interested in nothing – anymore
I am interested in no one – anymore
I have lost interest in interest itself
I feel your eyes upon me
Casting judgment
And bearing claws of disappointment
Cutting deeper and deeper
Where I didn’t even know I could feel
The world as seen through mist and tears
The torment of her thoughts and fears
Her hope and faith, lost through these years
Fading dreams on the tip of her mind
Empty pockets and a crying baby
Trapped in circumstance and legal fees
The cost of freedom hurts to pay
The price of seeking the unknown destination
Tortured fingers clasping tight
Tortured heart, not beating right
The beast of consequence sitting on her chest
So hard to breathe. So many regrets.
So it wasn’t what she thought it would be
Greener grasses may be a myth
Soon she will run out of tears
And find the strength to take that first step
And so the journey begins
Throw your head back and spread your wings
Toss aside the fears and chains
Begin to live once again
Do you remember how?
