Archive for January, 2007


Posted in Uncategorized on January 24, 2007 by organicsauce

I feel the eyes
of unseen ghosts

Staring at me
like a child
I still am
so afraid of the dark
and the temptations
of an over active mind

Silence screaming
in the center of my brain
Thought I was losing it
but that was just a dream

Another kind of pain
Smoke burns my eyes
I may be going insane

There must be
something else
What makes me want to be
so far away from here

This time
for good



Posted in Uncategorized on January 20, 2007 by organicsauce

Showered in the moonlight
Naked and exposed
She sits alone at night
Knees pulled to her chest
Afraid to let her feet touch the ground
The chains hold her in her prison
Trapped in a cloak of low self esteem
Like a caged beast
She looks around
The moonlight shines through dirty windows
Casting shadows seen with blurred vision
She finds the strength deep inside
But not the will
She’s not going back
She’s here for good
And no one is there to break her fall
But it doesn’t matter
Not anymore
It feels like no one is on her side
Yet again
She heard it in the wind
She knew it was the end
Waiting – she’s lost her voice
from crying too loud

No End

Posted in Uncategorized on January 19, 2007 by organicsauce

You led me on
and I waited for you there, alone
I don’t know why I still feel for you
Lovers deceptions and bitter stench of decay
forces me naked and in a cold corner
Breathless, afraid to move
Emotional vampire lusting on my pain
feeding on my tears, I am drained
It all comes crashing down

And when I look in the mirror
I see the fear in my empty eyes
The pain behind the mask I painted
Expressionless, trying to not feel
Losing sight of what is real
I think I’m stuck in this loop
I keep making the same mistakes again and again
There is no end
And I am afraid

I forgot

Posted in Uncategorized on January 18, 2007 by organicsauce

Breaking a sweat
on childproof caps
Scratchy throat
and shallow gasps
Urgent for no apparent reason
A struggle to remind myself
I am alive
and why

I don’t feel anymore
Only this pain
I’m only happy anymore
When I am insane
I’m always searching
Beyond my current grip
I fail to listen to your reasons
Lost in the fog and chaos


Posted in Uncategorized on January 15, 2007 by organicsauce

The landscape
so wide and far away
Fighting these chains
My desire
to live
and be free
I can’t give up
Not again
Not anymore
short of breath
Eyes twitching
Heart beating
hurts my skull
So desperate
Fight or flight
What will it be?
I’m finally free
Running to the hills
Past the trees
Lungs on fire
and legs burning
the sweet agony
of freedom
I will never return


Posted in Uncategorized on January 11, 2007 by organicsauce

Her guiding hands
guiding his face
lips pressed against her lips
Frozen in time
Her dream alive
as his touch spreads warmth
Wet beyond the folds
Anticipation leaving her breathless
She surrenders
He takes what is now his
No longer fearful of what might be
Taking her
Tasting her
for the very first time, again
like in his dreams


Posted in Uncategorized on January 5, 2007 by organicsauce

In the corner
Cowering and hiding
Behind my own frail limbs
Seeking solitude and refuge
Still, your words sting my flesh
Piercing deep
To my own unknown
My heart
Ripped to shreds
Displaced and strewn out in the lawn
Stomped under foot
Dust to dust
I’m left
Caged with invisible bars
Holding on
But I forgot why